The biggest lie I've been told in college is that I can be two people and "be fine."
Freshman year I was told that Sunday through Wednesday I can pursue my faith, and Thursday through Saturday I can forget anything I might have gained the first half of the week. And then "be fine."
Now, can I literally do that? Of course. God gave us free will, yo. So what's the lie?
The lie here is the "be fine." The lie is that I can live two lives and be able to feel like one person. The lie is that I can pray for God never to abandon me, and then feel comfortable abandoning Him every Saturday night.
Trust me when I say that I tried to "be fine." I tried to be okay with praying and partying in the same day. I tried to be His beloved daughter one moment and a distant cousin the next. I tried to force my two selves into a cohesive being, and I tried to settle for an average college life AND and average spiritual life.
Guess what, peeps? It didn't work. Betcha didn't see that one coming. ;)
Brothers and sisters, God doesn't take breaks from us. Why do we purposefully take breaks from Him? I have never seen this happen more than in college.
In college we picture our life as bookends, we have who we are now, and who we want to be in 20 years. But, we don't really think about how we will get there.
We feel invincible, which I believe is the cancer of youth. We brush off our actions because "it's college" and these four-ish years will be wiped off our soul and our conscience like a mark on a whiteboard. It's the ultimate excuse these days.
God doesn't just care about you sometimes. If you only care about Him sometimes, that's something to reflect on. It's a duplicity I find in myself over and over again.
St. Therese, Pray For Us.